Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Emotional

I know this is my third post for the day, but I'm stuck at work with nothing to do. I am sure I could figure something out, but I'd much rather play. With that said...

I'm an emotional wreck today! What is wrong with me? The last few days I just want to cry. Yesterday I did, twice. First in the morning on the way to work I was listening to this radio station that was giving this family a beautiful Christmas. This married couple lost their jobs, had newborn twins and a few other kids and were struggling. I was a mess.

THEN...again last night my mom called and told me that I might not get to see her while we are in town because she is so sick. I am about to start crying again. If most of you don't already know, my mom is recovering from breast cancer. She has had a REALLY rough year. It was hard on me too. I flew out a couple times to be with her, especially during her mastectomy. She has various problems throughout the year, but now she has been sick for the last three weeks. She hasn't even been to the doctor yet and I'm convinced she has pneumonia. This breaks my heart!! She is so stubborn and doesn't go to the doctor when she should. Ugh.

K. That's it for now.

P.S. I'm never eating McDonald's ever again. I feel horrible. Ugh.

A few more wedding photos
















Doppler from Stork Radio

We got our doppler in the mail yesterday! It's AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We tried to find the heartbeat before we rushed off to dinner but since we were rushed we didn't find it. After dinner we tried again and the husband found it right away! We listened to it for a good 5 minutes. The little booger was moving all over the place. It was the most amazing sound in the whole entire world. We had the biggest smiles on our faces! haha! I am very very very happy I opted to rent the doppler. I am not as worried as I have been, but to be able to hear our little baby everyday really makes us feel closer to the little one in my belly. I will keep it until I start feeling movements. It says you can record and email the heartbeat. We are going to figure that out next.

I can't believe we leave tomorrow. I seriously have SO much to do. AHHHHHHHHHH! We are doing our Christmas tonight which I haven't even finished shopping for!!!!!!!!!! Nothing is wrapped. I actually told him last night that we aren't wrapping presents this year. I feel horrible and sad about it, but I just don't have time! Here is the beginning of my list of things to do:

1) Finish shopping for husband. I need to pick up his weight set.
2) Get gift certificate for Target for our friend that is watching our house and taking care of our kitties. She's amazing.
3) While I am at Target get last minute things for the trip.
4) Get butter from grocery store.
5) Finish baking cookies.
6) Deliver cookies to neighbors!
7) Laundry
8) PACK!
9) Clean - at least just a little because our house looks like a train wreck.
10) Drop-off and pick-up prescription from Walgreens.
11) Get keys to friend!
12) Get toes and nails done
13) Was supposed to get hair cut tonight - cancel appointment.

OMG. That's all today/tonight. I need to not freak out. I'm freaking.

ANDDDDD...I had the most horrible dream EVER last night. There was SOOOOO much to it, but first I was making out with my ex. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! It was horrible. So gross. Then I started bleeding. I was bleeding so much and then when we tried to find the heartbeat, we couldn't. There was much much much more to the dream, but that was the jist of it. It was horrible.

P.S. Why must I wake up every dang morning around 3am?

Monday, December 21, 2009

Follow-up Appointment

I had my follow-up appointment today with my OB. I apparently STILL have blood in my urine which seems like that is normal for me. He said if I weren't pregnant then he would send me to a urologist to have tests done. I guess that is something I will have to look forward to when I have this little one. He put me on different antibiotics too. He wants me to stop taking the Keflix and start on this new one. Fun. Then...

We listened to the heartbeat!! I love love love that sound. The little bean's heart rate is 155. I just got my rented doppler from Stork Radio in the mail today too, so the husband will get to hear it. I am so happy that everything is going okay so far. We will be 12 weeks on Thursday! I still worry a bit, but not as much as I was. Our little baby is STRONG!

We leave on Wednesday for California for 9 days. I am VERY much looking forward to the trip, but it will be VERY busy. I know I am going to be exhausted when we get back. It will be worth it though. I can't wait to see our family and friends. Its been way too long. Last time I was there was in April for my bachelorette party!!

I still haven't uploaded pictures. I. am. lazy.

Friday, December 18, 2009

10-11 Week Survey

How far along? 11 weeks 2 days, right?
Total weight gain/loss: Ugh. About 3 pounds UP still. After being really sick I lost a couple, but I am sure I put them back on now.
Maternity clothes? I loathe maternity jeans. I tried them on again today and hate them with a passion. I am wearing jeans right now that I am not sure will work much longer. I can barely breathe. I am hoping they stretch out a little bit soon!
Sleep: I'm still very very tired at night. I go to bed really early. I don't think I stayed up past 8 last night! I usually wake up a few times in the middle of the night, but not always for the restroom. Sometimes I just lay in bed with my mind going. I am sure it's because I am going to bed so early.
Best moment this week: Seeing our little wiggle worm move all over the place. Knowing that he/she is okay makes me feel so much better. I love him/her so much already!!
Movement: He/she is moving ALL over the place, but I can't feel it yet. I can't wait!
Food cravings: Nothing really. I had a craving for chili last night, but the husband pointed out that it was probably a bad idea since I have had stomach problems. I think I will make it tonight though. It sounds so good!
Gender: Only about 7 weeks until we can find out. We are going to the college here to have them look at 18 weeks. If they can't tell we have an ultrasound at 20 weeks!
Labor Signs: NO! They thought I was having contractions Monday because I was so dehydrated, but baby is fine!
Belly Button in or out? In. Let's hope it stays that way the entire time.
What I miss: Having clothes that fit.
Weekly Wisdom: Listen to your body.

Our doctor pushed our due date to July 8th and since he did that we decided to change what we are going by as well. We weren't going to, but it's what everyone is going by and it just makes it easier. The little one is measuring right where it should be too, so July 8th it is! Next Thursday I will be 12 weeks!!!! I am SOOOOOO excited!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

My trip to the ER

Well, let me start by saying Vegas was fun and the wedding was a blast. The dress fit, thank goodness! My boobs were popping out of the dress, but I was told it looked good. ha! Friday night we went to a small reception his mom was having in her suite and then I headed back to our room and the boys went out. The husband didn't get back to the room till around 3am! Needless to say, they had a blast. He was feeling it the next morning too! Poor thing! I didn't feel too bad for him though - he did it to himself. Anyways...

Fast forward to Sunday. We decided to do a little shopping before our flight and ended up having lunch at this burger place in Planet Hollywood. It was really good. We both had a guacamole burger and shared fries. About half way into my burger I started to get a little tummy ache, but I went ahead and finished it because I knew we wouldn't eat again for a little while. Well right after I finished I felt awful. I had the worst stomach pains and just wanted to lay down. I was starting to get really nauseous too, but just dealt with it as we walked back to our hotel.

After what felt like a 5 hour trek to our hotel (it was really only about 15 minutes), I went straight to the bathroom because I thought I was going to be sick. I didn't, but really just wanted to lay down and not move. We grabbed our bags and got a taxi to the airport. I felt okay at this point. Pretty icky, but nothing I couldn't handle. We finally sat down and didn't move until it was time to board our flight, which was about an hour and a half. I had to unbutton my pants because the pressure from them were making my stomach hurt worse. It was quiet interesting to try to walk with my pants undone because they kept almost falling down.

We made it to Albuquerque where our plane was delayed an hour! We were stuck there for three hours!! We found a seat in a little bar where Alex could watch the game and have a beer. I had ginger ale that seemed to not help at all. I was not feeling well at this point and it seemed to be getting worse. I started crying from the pain, poor husband didn't know what to do. After sitting there for about an hour I decided to contact my doctor. I was pretty convinced I had indigestion and I wanted to see if I could take anything. She told me to take some Zantax (at least I think that's what it is called), which I did and about 30 minutes later I started throwing up. Throwing up in an airport is just about the worst thing ever! I warned everyone when I went in there that I did not have the swine flu and that I was pregnant. I could just imagine every one's faces when I started to be sick. I am sure I cleared that bathroom out many times. We finally got on the plane and I seemed to have got worse. The stabbing shooting pains were horrible. I couldn't take it and felt like I was going to die. At this point I was shaking and couldn't stop. Poor guy sitting next to me must have been so freaked out.

As soon as we landed in Midland I made a bee line for the restroom and got sick again. Ew. I don't know how I made it to the car. I was so weak and felt so horrible. As soon as I got home I got into bed and didn't move. I woke up in the morning to feeling very horrible. I threw up a little, but there wasn't much left so it decided to come out the other end! I slept till about noon and called my doctor who told me to get to the hospital.

I called the husband, told him not to worry and to stay at work, and headed to the hospital. They immediately got me in and started testing. They hooked me up to an IV and then tried to find the babies heart beat, but they couldn't find it. At one point two nurses were looking for it and couldn't find it. I was really starting to freak out at this point but was trying not to show it. I am sure everything was okay, right? The husband came up after this because he couldn't focus on work and was worried about us.

The doctor came in and told me that I had a bad bacterial infection and started me on antibiotics. They gave me a shot for the pain, stuck swabs up my butt, gave me more meds through the IV and then left me alone for what felt like forever. We decided we wanted an ultrasound to make sure the baby was okay, which they said we could have. BUT, I had to get a catheter! WHAT?!?!?! So after going back and forth for a good 30 minutes and calling my doctor to see if we should do it, we opted to go for it. They shoved that damn catheter in - OH MY GOSH and then told me well, now you have to wait because we need to wait for the on-call technician. HAHAHA. So, I sat there with that damn thing in for about an hour and a half until the lovely technician got there. They started the ultrasound and look what we saw:


Our little baby looks like a baby!! Not only that, but the little wiggle worm was ALL over the place! He/she didn't stay still long enough for us to get a really good picture. He/she waved for us, posed and kicked like a little soccer player. It was truly amazing. We were SO relieved that everything was okay.

After the ultrasound they removed the catheter and I was soon released and sent home to rest and take it easy. I wasn't feeling great, but I felt a lot better than I did when I first went in there. I was happy to be home!! I ate a sandwich and then fell asleep.

I am FINALLY back to work today and feeling so much better and our little one is okay! Phew.

Friday, December 11, 2009

First OB Appointment - Success!

Okay, I was worried about this appointment. I was just so worried that we wouldn't hear a heartbeat, BUT...we did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how it went...

The husband and I met up at the doctor's office and were greeted by the entire staff. They were so happy to meet Mr. P. hahaha. P stands for "Problem." They gave me that nickname awhile back. Actually, I think I gave it to myself and they ran with it. Now I am Mrs. P and the husband is Mr. P. So, I get called in, pee in a cup, get weighed (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH), they take my blood pressure and we went in to chat with the doctor. He was very nice and answered all our questions after asking us a ton. He asked questions about how I have been feeling and our family history. When it was time to ask our questions I froze! I should have wrote them down, but I didn't. The husband asked a few great questions (he obviously did his homework, I was so proud). I think was just too anxious to get in there to hear the heartbeat! Before that came I had to endure a wonderful pap smear! It's so weird how much more sensitive everything down there is now - it wasn't pleasant, but it was quick. The poor husband was trying to not look. haha!

After that was all said and done it was time to try to find the heartbeat! He did mention that it may be too early to find it, but he would try and to not freak out if we didn't find it. Ya, right...after what felt like 5 minutes, he found it!!! Our little precious baby's heart was beating away. I don't know how fast it was though because his cheap-o doppler didn't have a lcd screen. Huh? Oh well. I will deal. As soon as he found it I wanted to cry and laugh, but I didn't want to move so we could hear it a little longer. It was AMAZING. I am now going to rent a doppler for a few months. haha. I don't want to wait another 4 weeks to hear that!!

He said my due date is the 8th of July instead of the 12th, but he's going off his little chart and I know I ovulated late. Even our ultrasound measured right on with what I was expecting, so I'm not going to change our due date just yet. If our little one is measuring bigger at our 20 week ultrasound, then I will change it, but I am pretty positive it's still the 12th. Either way, I'm so happy everything went so well. He said we are off to a fantastic start and everything looks great! YA!

The wonderful office staff loaded me up with a HUGE bag of goodies!!! Tons of reading material and fun stuff like a planner, formula, picture frame, DVD, tons and tons and tons of magazines, small samples of lotion, hand sanitizer, tissue...the list goes on!

This all feels so much more real. This is happening! We are both so happy.

We are off to Vegas this afternoon for his mom's wedding!! I am the Matron of Honor and am PRAYING the dress still looks good and fits!!! Eek. I am sure it does. I am a little worried about being in Vegas with all the smoke and people, but I will do my best to stay away from it all. I was contemplating wearing a mask...haha. I know, I know...I don't want to be some freak, so I will just steer clear of all the nasty smoke. It might suck a little because I won't be able to hang out with everyone much. There is a wine and cheese reception tonight that I will go to and then plan on going back to the room while everyone goes out to hit the town. Kind of a bummer, but I will get to relax and I won't be hungover the next day! HAHAHAHAHA! It will be a totally different Vegas experience for me!

We will be staying at the new Vdara at the City Center! It's BEAUTIFUL! We got a deluxe suite for only $99 a night. It's only be open for about a week - sweet!!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

First OB Appointment Today! and the dreaded belly picture.

I had a HORRIBLE morning. I was about to get on the floor, kick my feet and start crying. I couldn't find ANYTHING to wear. Nothing. I tried on about 7 different shirts. My boobs are too big, so my button up shirts don't fit. My work slacks don't fit really, so I had to try the bella band. It was a pain in the ass, so I changed pants for the third time to my one and only pair that fits and they are getting tight too. Then to try to find a shirt that works. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to go shopping. I'm only 9 and a half weeks and nothing fits. This can't be good.

My day should get better because today at 2:15 we have our very first OB appointment. I am not too thrilled about the pap smear, but I will deal. I just want confirmation that everything is okay!We both can't wait to hear the little heartbeat again.

This is what we woke up to last Friday morning. Our grass was full of snow, but someone, ahem, forgot to turn off the sprinklers, so it melted most of the snow. It was so pretty! My boss called me to tell me not to come in until noon - whoohooo! It snowed almost all morning!


I only have one picture from my phone at Salt Lick. The most amazing BBQ place in the whole entire world. It's right outside of Austin. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! As you can see, I was happy to be there.

Here is my belly at almost 5 weeks. I thought I was bloated then...

AND HERE IS THE MONSTER NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! It's huge. THIS is why nothing fits. =( I would be happy if it was baby, but this is NOT baby! I am not even 10 weeks yet! This can't be normal. I need to put down the pizza and candy. No more.



Monday, December 7, 2009

9 Weeks!!

How far along? 9 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: Ugh. About 3 pounds UP. I was horrible this weekend. I am officially only eating healthy from now on!!
Maternity clothes? I put up the stupid maternity jeans. I am not wearing them until I have to. Clothes are tight, but I'm dealing.
Sleep: I'm exhausted ALL THE TIME. All I want to do is sleep. I went to bed around 6 last night because I had a horrible headache. Thankfully it's gone today.
Best moment this week: We are going to Vegas this weekend for his moms wedding. I am the Matron of Honor. Let's hope the dress still fits! haha! AND on Thursday we have our first OB appointment. I am looking forward to hearing our little ones heartbeat.
Movement: Just gas.
Food cravings: Just horrible food. Pizza, candy, you name it.
Gender: We will find out in February.
Labor Signs: No.
Belly Button in or out? Everything is the same.
What I miss: Not being tired. Caffeine.
Weekly Wisdom: Ummm...I don't really have any!
Milestones: Getting to 9 weeks!! So close to the end of this first trimester. Praying we get there and all is okay this Thursday at the appointment.

Alex's brother has been here since last weekend. He leaves today and I'm really happy to have our home back. I love him to death, just miss our privacy! Alex leaves today too though for Nashville. He will be back Wednesday. I would typically enjoy a little time alone, but I am so needy lately that I don't want him to leave!! I will deal, but I'm sad.

The boys put up our Christmas lights on Saturday. It looks amazing! I've been a horrible blogger lately with no pictures, so I will get on that this week!